happiness means never apologizing for being me
im one of the nicest people youll ever meet, im always here for everyone
i definitely don't care what anyone thinks of me, i am who i am, people like me or they don't, i know in life not everyone is gonna get along
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i love my haters <3 - even when i get blamed for shit i took no part in =]
moving along…
today- im not doing anything, including showering ^_^ just relaxing and recovering, and if you think its nasty and have a problem with it, feel free to unfollow or close out my page
tomorrow- going for a run! going tanning! sharing stories and going to the beach with a friend! loving life!
wednesday- going for a run! going tanning! then a friend is coming over where we will book our flight and hotel for our vacation next week!
thursday- either the zoo/mackinac island/silver lake/IDK!
friday- ill make plans for friday after this blog
saturday- a friend is coming over, probably see a movie or go to craigs cruisers, or something
NEXT WEEK: VACATION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PS: i love online shopping!
When i was a little, my understanding of revenge was the simplest of sunday school proverbs it hid behind. Neat little morality slogans like do unto others and two wrongs don’t make a right.
But two wrongs can never make a right because two wrongs can never equal each other.
For the truly wronged, real satisfaction can be found in one of two places. Absolute forgiveness or mortal vindication.
Sometimes the innocent gets hurt, but one by one the guilty will pay. Nothing ever goes exactly as you expect and the stakes are life and death. Collateral damage is inescapable
Trust is a difficult thing, whether its finding the right people to trust or trusting the right people will do the wrong thing.
But trusting your heart, is the riskiest thing of all. The only person we can truly trust, is ourself.
The greatest weapon anyone can use against us is our own mind, by praying on the doubt and uncertainties that already lurk there.
Are we true to ourselves or do we live for the expectations of others? If we are open and honest can we ever truly be loved?
Can we find the courage to release our deepest secrets? Or in the end, are we all unknowable? Even to ourselves.
In revenge, as in life, every action has an equal and opposite reaction. In the end, the guilty always fall.
You can try to turn your back on it, but thats when it sneaks up behind you and eats you alive. Some people struggle to understand their own guilt, unwilling or unable to justify the part they play in it.
Others run away from their guilt shedding their conscious until there is no conscious at all. But i run toward my guilt, I feed off of it, I need it. Guilt is one of the few lanterns that still light my way.
They say vengeance taken will tear the heart and torment the conscious. If there is any truth to it then I now know with certainty that the path im on is the right one.
Like life, revenge can be a messy business. In both would be much simpler if only our heads could figure out which way our heart will go. But the heart has its reasons, of which reason cannot know.
As hamlet said to aphelia, God has given you one face, and you make yourself another. The battle between these two halves of identity, who we are and who we pretend to be, is unwinnable.
Just as there is two sides to every story, there is two sides to every person. One that we reveal to the world and another we keep hidden inside. A duality governed by the balance of light and darkness.
Within each of us is the capacity of good and evil, but those who are able to blur the moral dividing line hold the true power.
Theres an old saying about those who cannot remember the past being condemned to repeat it, but those of us who refuse to forget the past, are condemned to relive it.
The past is a tricky thing, sometimes its etched in stone, and other times its rendered in soft memories.
Its been written that a lover is apt to be as full of secrets from himself as is the object of his love from him
We all have secretes we keep locked away from the rest of the world. friendships we pretend, relationships we hide.
The worst of all is the love we never let show, the most dangerous secrets a person can bury are those we keep from ourselves.
We’re all drawn to the warmth of a true connection, but avoid getting too close to an open flame, for someone is sure to get burned.
Always question where your loyalties lie, the people you trust will expect it, your greatest enemies will desire it, and those you treasure the most, without fail, abuse it.
Some say loyalty inspires boundless hope, and while that may be, there is a catch. true loyalty takes years to build and only seconds to destroy.
Defense lawyers use the term duress, to describe the use of force, corrosion, or psychological pressure in the commission of a crime. when duress is applied to the mentally unstable, the result can be as violent as it is unpredictable.
Duress impacts relationships in one of two ways, it either tears people apart or strengths their connection, binding them tightly in a common objective.
The average person leading an ordinary life, fame holds an abnotic attraction. many would sooner perish than exist in anonymity, but for the unlucky few who had notoriety forced upon them, infamy can be more damning than any prison term.
People are fond of saying that you cant unring a bell, and while that may be true, you can certainly smother its ring under the dull roar of conjecture and lies. but, some words ring out like church bells, rising above the dim, calling us to the truth.
Some words are immortal, long buried our even burned, they’re destined to be reborn like a phenix rising from the ashes, and when they do, they can literally take your breath away
Never underestimate the lengths of which a desperate man will go. With a little digging ghosts from the past can be conjured from thin air. Its when they become flesh and blood the real problems arise. Nothing is more dangerous than someone who knows everything about your past. Especially when they can use it as their own.
Some say that our lives are defined by the sum of our choices, but it isn’t really our choices that distinguish who we are, its our commitment to them. Commitment is built on compromise. For some, commitment is like faith, a chosen devotion to another person or an intangible ideal.
But for me commitment has a shadow side, a darker drive that constantly asks the question, how far am i willing to go?
Years ago, i met a boy who introduced me to a book, the marriage of heaven and hell. in it, william blake writes, if the door of perception were cleansed, everything would appear to man as it is, infinite, but in reality, our perception is often clouded. by expectations, by experiences, as of late i find my perception is blinded by only one thing, revenge.
Truth is a battle of perceptions, people only see what they are prepared to confront. its not what you look at that matters, but what you see. and when different perceptions battle against one another, the truth has a way of getting lost.
There comes a moment in each of our lives when the control that keeps us sane slips through our fingers. most of us aim to seize it back. the best way to fight chaos is with chaos.
Chaos, by its very definition cannot be controlled. Once introduced, all order and intention is rendered useless. The outcome of chaos can never be predicted, the only certainty it brings, is the devastation it leaves in its wake.
In a crisis you quickly find out who your real friends are. tragedy and scandal it seems, have a unique way of clarifying peoples priorities.
Adversity creates unexpected alliances, but treaties of this nature seldom form within a quality of power.
Loyalties forged in apprehension and mistrust are tenuous at best. easily broken when held up to the unforgiving light of the truth, but in the darkness of our most desperate hours, its often these loyalties that lend us the strength to do what must be done.
A conflicted heart feeds on doubt and confusion, it will make you question your path, your tactics, your motives. When you stare ahead and darkness is all you see, only reason and determination can pull you back from the abyss
Ive learned that in the pursuit of revenge, collateral damage cannot be avoided. Some truths must be buried in surface of greater ones. Can you stand by as others bear the consequences of what you set in motion? This is the true test.
Vengeance always comes at a price, and those who deserve to suffer the most, aren’t always the one who pay.
Doubt is a disease, it effects the mind creating a mistrust of peoples motives and of ones own perceptions.
Doubt has the ability to call into question everything you’ve ever believed about someone. And reinforce our darkest suspicions of our inner circles.
Those who don’t need to be protected from outside forces often need to be protected from themselves.
Clarence Darrow one of histories greatest lawyers once noted, there is no such thing as justice in or out of court. Perhaps because justice is a flawed concept, that ultimately comes to down to the decision of twelve people.
People with their own experiences, prejudices, feelings about what defines right and wrong. Which is why when the system fails us, we must go out and seek our own justice.
Justice like beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Some see an innocent victim, others see evil and carnage getting exactly whats deserved.
Absolution is the most powerful form of forgiveness, a full of pardon of suspicion and countability, its the liberation of a stolen future.
Absolution is a washing away of sin, a promise of rebirth, and the chance to escape the transgressions of those who became for us. The best among us will learn from the mistakes of the past, while the rest seemed doom to repeat them, and then there are those who operate on the fringes of society, unburdened by the confines of morality and conscious, a ruthless breed of monsters who’s deadliest weapon is the ability to hide in plain site.
They say grief occurs in five stages, first there is denial, followed by anger, then comes bargaining and depression, for most, the final stage of grief is acceptance, but for me grief is a life sentence without clemency, i will never accept and i will never forgive.
They say grief occurs in five stages, first there is denial, followed by anger, then comes bargaining, depression and acceptance, but grief is a merciless master, just when you think youre free, you realize you never stood a chance.
In every life there comes a day of reckoning, a time when unsettled scores demand their retribution, and our own lies and transgressions are finally laid bare.
1) why do people instigate shit? get over your own insecurities and leave everyone else alone. stop being cancerous and just get on with you life, kthxbyee
2) my whole plans got changed this past week, but its ok because everything worked out for the better and its legit
3) I’ve only been on the computer for all of 5 minute and im ready to get off
byebye
